When I was younger I was obsessed with the idea of insanity.
I very often found my thoughts wandering to my fascination with questions like,
“Is Blue blue?” or most often, “Am I crazy?” It should be noted, that I was
quite young, and so most of these questions weren’t even being touched on in
school yet, so I didn’t really have any influences in coming to my conclusions.
I do remember a quote from the play Proof
during a conversation in Catherine’s head while she’s speaking with her
dead father, who was insane:
Robert: You're gonna be okay.
Catherine: I am?
Robert: Yes. I promise you. The
simple fact that we can talk about this together is a good sign.
Catherine: A good sign?
Robert: Yeah.
Catherine: How could it be a good
sign?
Robert: Because crazy people don't
sit around wondering if they're nuts.
Catherine: They don't?
Robert: No. They've got better
things to do. Take it from me. A very good sign that you're crazy is an
inability to ask the question, "Am I crazy?"
Catherine: Even if the answer is
yes?
Robert: Crazy people don't ask, you
see?
I saw this play at 7 and although I’m not convinced I agree
with him, it’s a quote that’s been rattling around in my head for more than
half my life. I would lie awake at night considering it: “Am I insane? Is all
of this just part of my imagination? Does the fact that I can consider it make
me sane? Does the fact that I can convince myself that I’m sane negate my
proof?” I was 11 when I first learned the word paradox, and was able to place
my current problem into word I could actually explain. I had already, already
started to from my view on things. Namely, that it doesn’t actually matter. To better
explain, we must believe in something, and so it is logical to believe in
ourselves before all else. We live in the world of our own perception, so we
need to trust that perception.
I’m going to finish this summary with a second quote, this
one from the movie Second Hand Lions:
Hub: Sometimes the things that may
or may not be true are the things a man needs to believe in the most. That
people are basically good; that honor, courage, and virtue mean everything;
that power and money, money and power mean nothing; that good always triumphs
over evil; and I want you to remember this, that love... true love never dies.
You remember that, boy. You remember that. Doesn't matter if it's true or not.
You see, a man should believe in those things, because those are the things worth
believing in.
This was super interesting to read. I am also interested in insanity and things like that, I'm a psych major. The play lines put a new spin because I never thought of it like that before when it comes to 'crazy.' I also found this discussion to remind me distinctly of Alice in Wonderland for some reason lol.
ReplyDeleteAlice in Wonderland is a great example! Especially if you've read the books because the both include themes of insanity.
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